Sunday, October 30, 2005
MY IMAGINARY WEDDING.

its time to say some COCK stuff haha.

lastnight i went to this wedding, which in my opinion, wasn't a blast haha. and 3/4 of the time i was thinking what i want at my own wedding and i'm here to share! :)

you know those waiters&waitresses? haha i want to have a waiter&waitresses audition! only hunks&babes wid good manners are hired! cos' you see, i bet you all don't want someone boring to serve you guys right. i thought the guys would like to see waitresses as pretty as those sentosa babes eh ;) and the girls..drooling over those hot bod and good looking faces. SO. i've decided, an audition is a must must!

there's someone out there for me
i know he's waiting so patiently

not only that, the waiters&waitresses must have a brand new uniform! y'know sometimes people dress like they're the waiters/waitresses? cos' its like, everyone has this 'look' about waiters&waitresses. SO. at my wedding, i'm g'na make them wear something different! ALL OF THEM MUST LOOK STYLED! :D

can you tell me his name
this lifelong search is driving me insane

oh right! my wedding will have a theme. like, disney fantasy or tarzan and jane or beauty and the beast or da vin ci code. you know you know, a wedding that's similar to some nice stories or cartoons or final fantasy or wimbledon or whatever shit. haha okay i will elaborate more. like, if the theme is tarzan&jane then maybe during one segment of the dinner me&him will dress as tarzan&jane? haha so exciting right! or there will be a dress code for the wedding! like, if the theme is disney, you can dress up like some disney characters or have some disney-related sense in your dress style! or maybe i will decorate the whole place till it looks like a jungle! haha. i think it will be very exciting.

how does he look
how does he cry
what's the colour of his eyes

andandand. i'm going to make rfc the compere! cockster like kentoh&nan kor will host the whole dinner! then so exciting right, throughout the show, there will be cocking jokes and reliving of our jc moments during the dinner! so now, i'm going to bring camera to school almost everyday to capture these moments so that next time during my wedding, i can release them all! and make everyone laugh and remember those precious moments! :D not forgetting those raping scenes! :D

does he even realise i'm here

and of cos, not forgetting the dessert. THIS WAS PLANNED LIKE LASTYEAR! when i was wid mingwei :(( hahahaha anws, my wedding dessert isn't going to be like the usual. it will be HD ICECREAM! :D aren't you excited! i heard the dessert need to symbolise some auspicious meaning. so i've thought of one warped theory myself. like, firstly, it must be double-scooped. so it will means shuang shuang dui dui. then since its cold&sweet, it will be SWEET in the end. so i don't care, i will give them ice-cream! and hengleng&co calculated last year how much the dessert alone will cost; 7000 sgp. hahahahaha. so i think i need to marry HD's boss's son already :(( hahahahaha.

where is he
where is he
where is he
where is this beautiful guy

AND! so stupid. jerry&hengleng also said during my wedding, i must wear pants, not gown. this is b'cos in case my asthma attack comes, i won't trip on the gown and fall. :(( so bad lah. and i think whatever cock the hosts are saying will trigger those asthma attacks. HAHA.

who is he
who is he
who's gonna take me so high

sorry to fish-lovers! i will ban fish as a dish on my wedding b'cos i absolutely hate fish. not that i find it totally not delicious, it is. but its cos' i'm extremely paranoid about fishbones! you all know that right. hahahaha and i don't want ANYONE on that day to have ANY mishaps. but okay, this isn't compulsory. in case i marry a fish-lover ha ha ha ha.

i'm staring out of the sky
praying that he walk into my life

what's more. OH! DOOR GIFT! i will have a surprise door gift for everyone! :)) haha and it will be bought in personally by me! like it won't be a common door gift but individual ones! SO EXCITING! andandand, no hongbaos allowed for non-married people ha ha ha ha. I WANT A GIFT! okay if you want to give me money also can but i don't want it to be in angbao cos' i've this mentality that hongbaos are given only by elder people! :D

where is this man of my dreams
i will wait forever how silly it seems

and i want to have a beach reception in the day! not that i like the sea and beaches alot. i thought its quite dirty sometimes but i want the ceremony to be somewhat like under the sun! maybe i should make it a bikinis&trunks only entry BUT then i think if i really do, not many would turn up so yeah. HA HA HA. and i'm going to learn swimming for it! and not be like a chicken in the water anymore!

where is he
where is he
where is he
where is this beautiful guy

not only those, i'm going to select those music played at the wedding myself. it won't be like only those slow&romantic song. there will be hiphop&rnb and sentimental songs too! as long as me&him like them, I WILL HAVE IT THERE!

who is he
who is he
who's gonna complete my world

and i don't mind single-handedly organise my whole wedding cos' i think its most fun when i'm involved! and i'm going to get ALL RFC to go and test the wedding food! and if possible, make hokkien as the yi mian dish or whatever. AND honeymoon and whatever shit. maybe i should go to amk more often to establish a relationship wid the hokkien mee uncle so he will cook at my wedding the next time.

I THINK GETTING MARRIED IS SOMETHING VERY EXCITING! :D

but i wonder if i would. i told my mom just now its so fun to have a wedding. i'm not sure if i would have one in the future. then she laughed. :(( but she said i must not think this way if not it really happen. so, i must start thinking i will have my own wedding one day hahahahaha. and BRIDEMAIDS! ha ha ha ha. i think if i'm going to be a bridesmaid it will be DOOMSDAY for the groom! H A H A. but aye, i won't be so bad on such a day i hope.
aiyah, you all just pray that i find my daomingsi (hahahahaha as in someone who has such a cute personality..not the shi nei or shi wai de you yong chi that kind) fast fast. hahahaha but to begin wid, i need to find someone who's adventurous enough to even accept those weird ideas of mine :((
i hope this entry sounds interesting enough to make you smile/laugh. i'm trying, so should all.
-paulin

next outing: newsroombar, 31st Oct
-rogerfc always at 10:12 AM

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Saturday, October 29, 2005
read paulin's post.. then i spent some time thinking too.. and i realised.. actually im quite a petty bastard too.. sorry people for the trouble i caused.. yea.. and sorry roger too.. for that little misunderstanding a few days back.. hope the bonds of friendship within RFC will hold, and not be broken because of little misunderstandings.. ive just apologised to roger and roger has accepted the apology.. we're fine now.. and i hope the other RFC-ians with any misunderstandings will do the same thing.. for every obstacle we overcome together.. RFC grows a little closer.. hope this post can help unite RFC.. let us be what the blog says.. RFC-United forever.. embrace the hate the world presents us.. overcome it instead of succumbing to it.. and in time, this feelings of hate will become the stepping stones to the building of the greatest friendships..

RFC forever..

ChinKheng.. The Remourseful King of The World was here..
-rogerfc always at 5:52 PM

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i went jogging this morning all by myself. thoughts raced through my mind and i sat there alone for like hours trying to piece all puzzle tgt. and i thought the existence of RFC was one of the best thing that happened to me.

once so united, so pure to what it is today. what's wrong? did time expose everyone's weaknesses and cripple those friendships formed? we all stood by each other against a common enemy before promos. (y'know who) had endless fun tgt. did we all forget and are we all turning our backs to people who were once closed to us?

i thought so too. i got annoyed at some people and openly displayed what i feel; publicly. not that i think we should all conceal our feelings but it just suddenly came to me, everything that i was annoyed at was so trivial and in contrast, made me look like a petty person. its just, all of a sudden, dawned on me that we should have kept an open mind. i mean, don't you feel this way? when certain things happen, you just got this urge to counter the person right in the face but when you really think it through, you will realise, if you had suppressed it for that moment, it would be gone by the next. and isn't that good? (i mean for trivial ones. if its those huge ones i think we will have to talk it out but yes) but i don't know. i still end up doing the same even though before i actually counter attack, there's this internal struggle if i should. i often give in to my urge so yes, not exactly useful for me. but, it seems as though all our acts are interlinked. what we do today/to anyone, it will have repercussions. good or bad but we must admit there is. so i thought before we actually start to feel this dislike for anyone around, we should just think about those good times we'd together. and do we really want to spoil those ties. shiqi asked me to tell these to people who feel this way but i told her no, b'cos i didn't want to appear as an hyprocrite. b'cos i had already voiced out too much. although i did tell zebelty but its cos' she's so close to me to the extent that i know she will not misunderstand me. but i hope, what i'm doing today makes you think if you should continue to dislike people who were once so close.

isn't it better to have an extra friend than a foe?

everything happens for a reason. even if it seems as if there's a reason for you to pick on, why not try finding a reason to not. very often, we just focus too much on the negative and forget about those goods. it doesn't matter if we're reciprocrated. what's important is we tried to be a nicer person to make everything that was once good to stay.

emo-free outing coming up next, i will be better. thanks.
(i think i g'na edit cos' it doesn't exactly capture how i feel :(()
-paulin
-rogerfc always at 12:41 PM

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Friday, October 28, 2005